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domingo, 22 de noviembre de 2015

Living the dream

This week it's gonna be 3 months since I got to New York... INSANE! Time goes by waaaaay too fast. I just had to do a montage of what has been going on this last September and October.

It starts with the apple picking activity that the international department organized for all the international students! It was incredibly beautiful and so american, but I had so much fun. Also I went to a basketball game at Madison Square Garden! It is such a huge and beautiful place. 

Then I went with my partner in crime Ari to Aladdin the Musical, which blew my mind everyone is way too talented. 

Also I got to do some sort of internship at my school in the costume crew, and it was such hard work but we still managed to have fun.

According to Marissa


viernes, 16 de octubre de 2015

2 Years Ago...

Hello!

2 years ago... well, not exactly two years ago, but yes at the beginning of this month I celebrated that I arrived to Spain! Is in it crazy how fast time goes by? I wrote a small post thanking everyone, since this year I am not there I still wanted to thank everyone. It has been a crazy ride, but the most wonderful one. Of course there are days that I miss home so much, but it is also true that I have without even noticing, built my home there. My school, friends and adoptive family back in Spain, I love you so much and I miss you so incredibly much.

Hoy, hace dos años, llegué (por primera vez) a España! No lo puedo celebrar justo ahí porque la vida nos lleva hacia nuestros sueños, pero aún así para mí es de celebrarlo porque ha sido un paso muy importante en mi vida y uno de los sueños más increibles. No solo he podido hacer lo que amo sino que he conocido a la gente más increible y que me han ayudado a crecer. 

A mi gente en Nebrija, que aprendo de mis compañeros mucho y hacemos de las nuestras en clase. A mis profesores y directores que me han ayudado e instruido a mejorar en lo que más me gusta: el teatro. A mis Bernardas, que a pesar de la distancia nos hemos visto evolucionar y llegar a nuevas metas. 

A mi hermana del alma, Ari, que siempre digo que me haz enseñado a ser un poquito más mala, pero en realidad es a ser ma yo. Gracias por tantas aventuras y locuras, por siempre escucharme y sobre todo soportarme! 

A mi familia extendida, mi familia adoptiva que tanta falta me hacen. A mis tías y tíos adoptivos: la increible y poderosa tía Patty y tío Gustavo, la amorosa tía Anita y tío Turco, los graciosos y atentos tía Mariana y Jackie, con las locuras y ocurrencias de Almudena, y la cariñosa de Clarita y al tan ayudador de Jackie . Y por supuesto mis primos adoptivos! Además a mis hermanos adoptivos, Manu y Rodri por todas sus atenciones hacia mi. Y la la granDiosa Dessi, por hacerme reir siempre y tus paseos! Y a mi sobrino adoptivo Mateo, que su creatividad y talento me sorprende siempre. Y sobre todo a mis padres adoptivos, 

María y Julio, no me queda más que darles gracias, gracias y mil veces gracias! Me hacen tanta falta todos sus consejos e historias, el cariño infinito de María y su singular alegria y manera de hacer las cosas. A Julio, sus ronquidos y gritos al ver el soccer me hacen falta pero sobre todo sus anecdotas y locuras. Gracias España, por llenarme de tantas alegrías y logros, te haz vuelto un hogar y un gran pedazo de mi corazón!

According to Marissa

domingo, 11 de octubre de 2015

Sister Makeup Swap Challenge

Hello!
My sister and I have COMPLETELY different styles, she is more into Rock & Roll and I am more into a romantic edgy style (I guess...). So during the summer we filmed this just for fun, but I decided to edit it and send it to her, because I miss her craziness so much and just bein around her and do our stuff together. Thought I could share this!

Love you so much my lil' sis,
According to Marissa

sábado, 8 de noviembre de 2014

My situation

So I did't wanted to get to this posts again, but I really need this now.

I feel sad again. But not that type of "sad for a day." I don't even know how or why, or I might do, but at the same time is so confusing for me. I' pve never wanted to give details about my life because I think is silly and the content doesn't really matter. But know I'm so afraid and lost I need to tell somehow what is going on.

I wish I could say my own problems bother me, but is actually my parents. My parents legal problems to be precise, and since I'm over 18 I must take legal action in all their demands. I don't even understand them but I'm involved and not only that I live in the other side of the planet and I'm supposed to "do something." And of course both of them ask me to be... on their side... which is also stupid.

I used to be afraid to say this, but I guess it doesn't matter anymore because I think I'm living with this forever, I had a depression. I used to sleep everywhere all the time and anything, anything would make me cry. I remember the worst feeling was that I didn't wanted to do anything, I wished I could stay in bed all day. I am very stubborn, and thanks to that I saved myself, but I used to have really bad break downs and that's what I fear the most now.

I have nok clue what to do, or how to solve this. My parents have been arguing for about 9 years... 9... and we haven't just deal with legal shit but also personal things. I wish all of this was a nightmare,  I wan't this to stop so bad that I'm willing to do anything.

The worst part is I'm keaving the dream, my college, living alone, new friends, a new culture but I feel so alone and anxious. I need my friends, or my sibilings but they are doing what they are supposed to.... keep going with their lives. I shouldn't expect people to take care of me, I should be able to do that, but I feel so small and weak.

I usually think all of this pain is going away or that I will be able to bare with it, but each time something like this happens I feel more and more broken. I spend my days locked in my room not letting anyone know whats going on with me. I put a smile, and you could ask anyone and they would tell you I'm a very happy person, but on the inside I feel like dying. The truth is I never expected this to happen again, but I've learned the hard way that life puts us tasks and I know this is a new on. The thing is I really don't know if I'll be able to do this once again.

sábado, 20 de septiembre de 2014

Back in Spain!

Hello! I'm back in Spain! I got here on Monday, my trip was terrible I felt I've traveled for an entire week, but well I'm back and the year started great. We're rehearsing again Bernarda Alba and I couldn't be so happy about it. We'll be performing in a festival in Madrid.

I must say right now I really miss home, I want to be with my mom and siblings but I now I must keep strong. As I said before this year I have a big goal: New York 2015-2016. I'm hoping I can go on exchange, and I'm working very hard for it.

Well I must go back and learn some monologues... sight* I'm officially back.

According to Marissa

miércoles, 10 de septiembre de 2014

Going away

It's sad going away from home because many things are going on home. I feel divided. I love what I do, school, the play, but there are issues at home and I don't wanna go. I miss my friends so much, my grandparents, my siblings. I've always been a "home person," I don't go out to crazy parties or stay out too late. I need MY people over there, but I need to follow my dreams and goal because I know it's all gonna be for good. I'm kinda confused and it all feels very weird, I have many and different feelings at the same time.

Its weird because I feel responsible about whats going on in home, but I've always been like that. I know I must follow my dreams because I know it will all pay back.
According to Marissa